I cant stop getting angry at myself for not telling Lan so many things...
Its not that i dont want to...but, i can never seem to find the right time to tell him. =
There are so manythings i wanna talk with him about,
So many things that i want to know about him,
So many things im hiding from him
And so many questions that i want to ask...
But everytime, something goes wrong, or theres something stopping me
Mayb its jus my weak heart, being scary of what the answer will be
Or how he would react to what i say...
This is one thing that im hiding from him, that is starting to kill mii from the inside
I met this guy at temple, hes really sweet to me,
He always smiled at mii with an amazing smile, and always jokes around with mii
At temple i always noticed him looking at mii
He is always with me and i have to admit, it is fun being with him
He keeps complimenting mii, pointing out the good things bout mii
When we are not in class he is always near mii
And wen he has chances he sits close to mii
He always tells mii things about, no matter good or bad
If i tell Lan this, i honestly dont kno how he will react
But in reality, when im with him... (guy from temple)
i always feel like...its like... iunno...
i always remember the first few months i spent with Lan
when he was always close to me,
hugging me, holding onto me or eveytime we looked into each other's eyes
those are the happiest times of my life,
i dont kno if its jus me or not, but it seemed to have changed
i feel a little distant from him... and it really... really scares me
jus the thought of losing him, make mii wanna... yer
im always thinking of him, even if i dont wanna,
but i always wonder what he thinks of mii...
or what i mean to him
Wen i c him with other girls, or wen im by myself
i feel so insecure & i seriousli hate myself for that
it feels as if im not trustin him =(
But when i see his smiling face,
it jus washes all my pain&problems away
On the other hand, wen i c his sad expressions,
and he doesnt tell mii wats rong, it feels really painfull inside...
but i guess im being selfish as always..
i jus wanna kno how hes feeling,
if hes happy
if hes sad,
if hes angry
or if hes stress
i wanna kno everything bout him
i want to kno him more than anyone else does
even though i kno i should only wish for him to be happy,
wat i truely wish, is for him to be mine..... n mine only
but this is jus another one of my selfish desires =(
its jus that... i love him.... i really love him...so much <3
Its not that i dont want to...but, i can never seem to find the right time to tell him. =
There are so manythings i wanna talk with him about,
So many things that i want to know about him,
So many things im hiding from him
And so many questions that i want to ask...
But everytime, something goes wrong, or theres something stopping me
Mayb its jus my weak heart, being scary of what the answer will be
Or how he would react to what i say...
This is one thing that im hiding from him, that is starting to kill mii from the inside
I met this guy at temple, hes really sweet to me,
He always smiled at mii with an amazing smile, and always jokes around with mii
At temple i always noticed him looking at mii
He is always with me and i have to admit, it is fun being with him
He keeps complimenting mii, pointing out the good things bout mii
When we are not in class he is always near mii
And wen he has chances he sits close to mii
He always tells mii things about, no matter good or bad
If i tell Lan this, i honestly dont kno how he will react
But in reality, when im with him... (guy from temple)
i always feel like...its like... iunno...
i always remember the first few months i spent with Lan
when he was always close to me,
hugging me, holding onto me or eveytime we looked into each other's eyes
those are the happiest times of my life,
i dont kno if its jus me or not, but it seemed to have changed
i feel a little distant from him... and it really... really scares me
jus the thought of losing him, make mii wanna... yer
im always thinking of him, even if i dont wanna,
but i always wonder what he thinks of mii...
or what i mean to him
Wen i c him with other girls, or wen im by myself
i feel so insecure & i seriousli hate myself for that
it feels as if im not trustin him =(
But when i see his smiling face,
it jus washes all my pain&problems away
On the other hand, wen i c his sad expressions,
and he doesnt tell mii wats rong, it feels really painfull inside...
but i guess im being selfish as always..
i jus wanna kno how hes feeling,
if hes happy
if hes sad,
if hes angry
or if hes stress
i wanna kno everything bout him
i want to kno him more than anyone else does
even though i kno i should only wish for him to be happy,
wat i truely wish, is for him to be mine..... n mine only
but this is jus another one of my selfish desires =(
its jus that... i love him.... i really love him...so much <3
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