My bad luck

lol,got to talk to lan for the second time
and yer... wii had an argument ^^
Nows like ...um 1.49am at Vn
i talked to lan like haf an hours or so b4 goin out with cousin
and lol, i was in the worse mood ever... i felt so much like shiz while talking to lan
i guess that made mii say stupid things that i somewhat regret saying
mii, wen im at my low point. i tend to say the first thing that comes to mind
thats why i dont like talking or chating while in low time
but i geuss i make exceptions or some people
it made things bad ^^

after that. went to Lotteria agains and then to this shop
to buy bubble tea and drinks
after that cousin. iunno how
but she crashed into someone while riding bike
bike tipped and owii ^^
but it wasnt as bad as i thought i would
fell in the position i normally would if i played soccer
and occasionally dived for the ball
so i kind didnt get hurt as bad,
jus my knee on the left side :L:L
but cousin didnt get so luckyy
her face was a lil scratched up, her knee was a lil worse than mine
and her arm a lil owii
but its not normal for her to fall like that so she was scared shitless
and hard out teared up
she was so scared wen i applied first aid at her grandma's place which was nearby

then i went home, earlier than expected
i saw lan online. this was about 12 over australia
which is like 9 over in vietnam
and it took mii a while to have the courage of wanting to talk to him
once i pressed on his chat on fb
he went off.......
i had a long talk with niichan..
cried a bit.... a... big bit?... ^^,
and yers
niichan thinks that lan asked mii out back thens was because of my "looks"
i have to admit... that really hurt...
even though i already knew that
now looking back to those days...
its really hrts.. iunno how much ive cried todays...
or these last few months
and after wat happened on tuesday at niichans house too
i listened o the song "broken love" by august
and i jus couldnt help but start tearing ups
im so tired of my life atm...
everything is going wrong
everything that was once good...
is just turning grey
its seems that no matter how many times the rains stops, there is never enough time for there to be a rainbow... it always stays grey and dull, until the next storm comes....i can bearly c any more sun light...
wen will this end?