... I don't even know how to start too be honest...
its like... these past few day has been filled with endless sorrow
it started of with so many laughs and smiles
but the next thing you know... i just cant forget it or stop crying when thinking about it
i know it may seem like nothing to him... but it still hurts for mii.. even now
i can't go past those words he said to me
i can still remember everything so clearly that it hurts to think
I had a fight with him on 31rd Dec ... obviously its New years eve
and it dragged on for 1 or 2 more days
These past few days, all I've been doing is staying in bed, unable to sleep
Going downstairs only when needed and not communicating with anyone in anyway
At this point... i no longer know what it is that i must do...
Right now I'm a total mess.. my head is blank and i don't understand anything anymore
I don't want to go anywhere that often as i usually do
I lost my appetite to eat basically anything
And it seems as if i lost all my hope ^^
Why and i having so much trouble believing in the person i love?
Why am i so weak that I cant stop the tears in for something "little" like this?
Why do i have such difficulties in trusting things like
"i love you" or "i miss you so much" ??
Why am i so different now.....?
Wishes
If all those bright stars up there in that dark night skye were wishes, who knows what wii can wish for. Everyone has a wish they always want to be granted. If i had a wish, i would wish for everyone to be happy. Even if something bad happened, i wish for them to have the strength to move on and try harder. So that everyone can smile, not a fake smile, but a smile that comes from the heart. A smile that is as bright as each and every shining star
i believe that - you shouldn't give up. fight for love, :) i'm pretty sure you love him and he loves you.
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