You are my everything

If i push you away, i dont really mean to.
when i tell you im fine, i truly am not
when i tell you i don't want to talk about, it i do
i just don't know what words to use
and worry if i choose the wrong ones, you will worry
just give me a while to think, i will tell you if you really care
i try to put a smile on my face everyday so i can also see yours
for your smile is what i use to wipe away my tears at night
if i am silent with my eyes to to the ground, then please
dont also go silent on me. those times are the time that i am close to tears
these times are when nothing no longer makes sense to me
i cant but doubt my existence, those are the times i need a hug the most
to show that i still have hope to continue on

I miss you way too easily
i know you should also have your free time
i know that space can be good too
but when you are not with me, even if for just a minute
i get insecure, i get immaturely jealous of anyone who get to see you on a daily basis
or those who you make laugh
this is because i love you
i love you so much that i am scared of losing both you and your love
i love the way you make jokes and laugh at it
i love the way you are so confident about yourself
i love the way you are always sleepy and yawning in the morning
I love the way you smile
i love the way you always look good, not matter what you're doing
i love the way you solve things so easily
i love the way you used to webcam with me every day
i love the way you love me
i love you... because you are basically you

sometimes when thinking about our first moments together
i can feel tears in my eyes
the tears for you proves that i love you more than anything
and my love hasn't done anything but grow each time i saw you
or each time im a way from you
my head is a just a complicated pile of thoughts
fears, desires, pain, sadness and dreams
about both past events, and somehow, the future

I am flawed in may ways
i have fallen and now broken because of what i am going through
but i and trying to stick the pieces back
my looks are nowhere near average but i still try
i have the worst of personalities and i am selfish
i try to act strong but fail, i am always so weak
i can be so immature that it annoys myself
i have no confidence in myself
but is it okay if i am like that?

I am one person,
my two hands are to wrap you in
my heart is captivated and is entirely for you
long story short... do you know?
You are my everything and i am lucky have you near me