Robbed of all my treasure

As you can see in the title, i go robbed yesterday
it was okay at  first, cause all i knew was that the two laptops were gone
but then, since everything in my parents room were both messed up
i just stood there for a while i didnt know what i was thinking
but i just ran into my room as fast as possible and threw everything off the bed
i noticed that the chest that Lan gave me...
the one with both the necklaces that he gave me... it was gone
at that moment i didnt care if anything else was taken i just stood there
and i fel tears falling down my face, i started to cry and just dropped to the ground
something so precious to mii was taken away just like that
i endlessly cried that day, right until the moment i fell asleep in my mum's room
theyy all think that i cried, because i lost all my savings, my laptop with my assignment
that was due soon, my phone and all my jewlery...
but they had no idea, the only reason i cried, was because of those to necklaces
i the second that that thought came into mind, i just lost it
i lost control of my tears, i lost control of my thoughs and just ran outside crying
they may think its jus a necklace, but it isnt just "a" necklace
its a necklace that someone dear to me gave me
those were the necklaces given to me by the person i love the most
how can i not cry? i didnt really care about the rest, jus that....
i want to talk to lan so much, and tell him about it, but he didnt say a word about it to me today
is that bad or good? i dont honestly dont know
but i cant ever start the convo about anything with him
its weird, i can never tell anything bad to the person i treasure the most
is that bad for our relationship?? i wonder?
i can tell it to about anyone, but not to him...unless he ask himself
but wen he does ask, i my instincts kick in and i dont tell him unless under alot of pressure
its not like i dont want to tell him, i want him to know everything, btu i guess i cant tell him for some reason
thats just me... i wish i can, if i could, id tell him almost everything...
to tell you the truth... i dont kno Lan that well... wii dont really tell our problems to each other
that really bothers mii... i gues im jus paraniod
but... i jus really wish that... me and lan, can just sit down somewhere and talk about... about
things... just like, talk about our problems, get to kno each other even mores...
but i guess its jus wishful thinking

Loc MSNed mii todays, asking if i was okayys
saying that his stomach had hurt from yesterday, so he asked mii if i was okayy
lol, isnt that weird ^^,
And i got to talk to anhtony as wells, he confurted miis and i guess it help a bit
but he is also really depressed lately cause of wat happen with *** ***** and the thingyy...date thing...
but yers, they are helping me alot with gettin over thing
and thanx to michelley, Anna-chi, Vii, Taylor, Kate and everyone else who took there time to listen to mii
thank u so much u all <3 love u heaps

P.S ive been listening to "runaway" by Bruno Mars ( was written b4 he bcame famous)
its a really good song and i that is how i am feeling towards things atm
mostly to Lan... plz try out the song if ur readint his ^^