Expectations, the perfect daughter, perfect grades, perfect looks, perfect speech.....

My parents have extremely high expectation of me, and it grows as i grow older. It gotten to a pain now that i just feel like breaking down.

Everything i do, i have to do it right, i have to get it perfect, i gotta be the best, i have to look the best, i gotta fast but perfect all in once.... it really killes mii inside. When i dont want to do something yet, u call me ill bred (mat day) and say that ive gone rebel (way) dont i dont care anymores. you say the look in my eyes have changed and i look so dull. you say i dont study enough,you say all my hobbies are useless and a waist of time. You ask me what OP i think i can get with wat i have now,when both u an i bearli kno anything about it. I say that i can get at least a one digit OP, then u start shouting at me as if im not tryin hard enough or im not good enough, sayin i have to get at least OP 1-3. You say i ahve to try harder, i have to be better, i have to be brighter, i have to be stronger, i have to be smarter, i have to look better, i have to speak better, i have to dress differentli, i have to stop playin sport, i have to study more, i have to save up more money, i have to go out less, i have to bet everyone ther is, i have to be more obidient, i have to stop hanging with "bad" people..... it jus hurts... really really hurts..they cant seem to pick out wat time good at but only wat im bad at, she will aslo pick out all my weaknesses in my strong points.. so i jus dont get it anymores, im lost. but everytime i think about wat shes making me b or wat shes making me do, i can never blame her for wat shes doin... she didnt have a childhood of luxury like me... grandma left her wif granddad n all the boys wen she went to the city with all the girls, leavin her to look after the family with granddad, so she never got the warm loving care from her mother like she should have.. so shes giving mii all of that,... something she didnt get. She never had a chance to have a good enough education and is not working at factories, shes tryin to support me in my education n give mii an oppertunity. she was never thought to do anything, she had to develop the skills herself, she wants me to kno those skill n to be taught them insted of having to find out myself. she is giving me all the things that she never got to have or experience, even though it can be painfull at times, im really thankfull for all the though she puts into it. i shouldnt complain and waste time while i can use that time to work harder. ^^