Things arent geting any better... to tell you the truth, its way worse, but i still gotta try to kno you

Why have i become so weak now?? i just dont get anything anymores... im not sure about anything around me and i feel as if im balancing on a pin head wif nothing to supporting mi but myself. there are so many things going on that life doesnt seem to make sence anymores... i feel as if the the wall i have built around myself is starting to crumble down with just a few constant hits, jus like an egg shell. egg shells r extremely storng compaired to how thin it is, but jus with the right hit or a sudden drop, it can break quite easily. Once it breaks, the yolk cans pouring out, just like the tears running down my face.

Someone who i thought was my friend started stabbing me on the back. First i could take it but now i dont know anymore. A month or two after i started seeing Lan, wii moved from the music block to the girls for a while (to hang wif henrri-onii and chelsea), n them since i was gone then, she started saying things myhind my back to all my closest friends... Dan, Claudette, Michelle, Kate and mayb Vossco.... it goes on. and because of that, claudette, dan and vossco moved up with me. So she started saying that it was my fault that the group was splitting up...because once i moved, my claudette dan n vossco did too..i didnt really take notice to her because i dont really mind what she sed about mii...so after i didnt take notice to her, she started sayin things about claudette... now that was wen i got quite angry at her, claudette had nothing to do with it, why r u blaming her? why r u gettin her involved? claudette seemed really bothered bout that bak then... but she kinda got over it a bit n rejoined to group agains. it seemed that she was okay with them, so i was happy. but then i found out that she started to drag Lan into it.... she blamed lan for everything that happened, saying that it was his fault that the group kinda spilt up, and since he moved in everyone changed. why does lan have anything to do with it, if u want something then jus tell mii, i dont mind, why do u have to strike the people that i love? i dont really mind wen it comes to mii, but not anyone else, dont drag anyone in that doesnt have anything to do with it.it just totally tore mii up thens.. but i was luckyy i had anna to support me, she was always there for mii at that time... and even now, she can always see right through mii. then a few days after that, she sed to michelle that if i wanted i fight than she would get the asian hut guys on mii...sweety, i kno pretty much all the high ranked guys in that group, i kno their soft sides, ive been there every single time theyy cried. i kno they dont hurt girls. and i never even sed anything about a fight, i never even opened my mouth bout the whole insident that you created yourself. i was really worryed bout her bak then. it didnt look good the way she was goin, after a while, she got one of the top guys from asian hut, Aiden to not really like her too. iunno bout the whole group be yer.. i heard them talking about her behind her bak, say mean shit about her. it made me fell sad cause this is happening to her. i got seriousli worried bout her, she didnt need more stress on her shoulder. she is extremely lucky to have people like claudette kate sally & taylor as good friends, im happy for her that they r her friends, mayb they can change her, i kno that she is a sweet person and id like to get to kno the real her. bit she wont ever let mii here her =( which makes mii feel ... even though she is stopping me from hanging outside school with them, or wont let mii get close to her, i have to admit, it does really hurt, i do feel left out, but i still want to get to kno her better, i kno she has a sweet side, like everyone does =( n it kinda bugs mii a bit wen i hear people call her bitch or say mean stuff about her... i jus dont wanna c her hurt, everyday she comes to school as if somfin happened n it bothers mii a bit... but yer, i hope she will be okay

Lienhhs outo Xx. ^^